Mic check. Brain check. Reality check.
Need a moment to goal check and figure out why I started writing in the first place.
It’s easy to sink into this fear of what if no one reads my work?
What if I don’t get recognition for my work that I’ve worked so hard for?
What if I’ve been writing for nothing?
The doubts stall me sometimes, makes me angry most of the other times.
But then I need a reminder, I need to go back to the start.
Why did I start writing?
I started because I loved playing in different worlds and being able to create my own rules.
What do I love about writing?
I can become anything or anyone I want to.
I love words and stringing them together, making them have meaning and evoking emotion.
I love when the words jump out at me or when a plot comes together without much prodding.
I love the feeling of purging what floats in my head without judgement.
I love impressing myself as I edit or read over my previous works.
I love being creative and playing a role in keeping the creative energy rolling around through the world.
I love being able to daydream the day away.
Mic checked. Brain Checked. Reality Checked.
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I needed this reality check because I was drifting away from the fun of writing and that is never good.
~I.L.U*
Quanisha A. McGruder
Embrace the Madness 
In 100% agreement with this. Fear that all my work, creativity, all the heart and soul I poured out into the world would be all for naught used to paralyze me because I was too afraid to be vulnerable, but now that I’ve stepped out there, I haven’t felt this free in a VERY long time.
It’s definitely a vulnerable craft and freeing at the same time, I agree with you. You want to do what you love and you want to succeed but I think it all boils down to how you rate success. I need to change my views on success and relying on what society views as successful and focus inwardly. I’m successful every time I can finish writing a post or story. I am successful when I decide to be vulnerable and share my words and characters with others.